The Hardest Goodbyes

Going into the Disney College Program, I knew I'd make some friends. I'm a generally outgoing person, and I love to be surrounded by people. It's not always easy for me to make close friends, but I knew that I would at least make some good acquaintances. Never in a million years did I expect that I would meet some of the greatest people in the world. Some of the people who would shape who I am as a person, for the better. Some people who would turn into not only my best friends, but into my family. 

About halfway through my program, I realized how hard it was going to be to say goodbye to these people. We spent almost every moment of each others lives for six months with each other. Whether we were having a good day, an awful day, or a mediocre day, we were there for each other. When the day came to say goodbye, well week actually since different people left at different times, it was the  most difficult thing I've done to date. 

We started with saying goodbye to Sonya since she had been accepted for the Disneyland College Program as well, but she was driving there. While that was very sad for everyone else, it was only a little bitter sweet for me since I knew I would be seeing her again soon. Afterward, our friends Gary & Rachel left. We only got to see them for a few hours over a dinner, and leaving them was the hardest. Gary had become my best friend at work; we loved to rap Childish Gambino songs (the edited version, of course) to each other across the platform. He was the jokester of the group, and everyone loved him. His fiance, Rachel, is just like him. She's one of the kindest people I've met to this day. 

Next, it was my turn to leave. I had to say goodbye to everyone I worked with, lived with, and became close to all at the same time. We all went to breakfast the day I was leaving, the day before everyone else was leaving. Needless to say, nobody wanted to leave that restaurant that morning. We stood outside in a huge circle not wanting to move. I started crying first, because it was me leaving first, and then everyone else was set off. We said goodbye and then my best friend Lauren & I left. 

It was then my time to say goodbye to her. It was basically us looking at each other laughing, saying 'We're not doing this. We're not saying goodbye. We're not crying.' And we didn't. We laughed and teared up a little bit. But I knew that she and I would never stop talking on a regular basis. Yes, life gets in the way sometimes, but she's still the person I go to whenever I want to talk about anything. 

Then came the hard part. My roommates. I had decided a long time ago that I wasn't saying goodbye to them. I told them that, and they all laughed at the time. But when the time came for it. Because I was leaving at such an odd time, it was impossible for me to see them. Then I was the one laughing. Because it was only right that the three of us who had become so close didn't say goodbye. And we didn't. 

The last people I said goodbye to were Thomas & Sonya. The two that had adopted me into their family during my time in Florida. I stayed with them talking and watching movies for about two hours, then decided I had to go. It was the place I was most reluctant to move away from. I gave Sonya the biggest hug in the entire world. Then it was time to say goodbye to Thomas. He's my older brother, my family. I saw him every day for six months, and we talked every day. He's the person I was closest to during this time. I gave him the biggest hug I could possibly give and we just sat there for a moment. He thought I was going to cry, and I thought he was. But we didn't. Then. I told them to go inside so they wouldn't watch me leave, but they didn't. They watched, and that broke my heart. 

I made it down the street to the McDonalds with composure, but the second that the woman at the window told me to have a safe trip home, I lost it. I pulled over to the side and bawled my eyes out. Telling Thomas & Sonya that it would be a minute until I got on the road. It took everything in me to not turn around in that instant and go back to their house. To stay in Florida. But I didn't. Because I had people waiting for me in Louisiana. Actual blood family. And god was I ready to see them. 
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