Sometimes picking yourself back up after a break up is really hard, but most of the time you've got a lot of people to fall back onto, maybe friends, family and even sorority sisters. However, going through a break up when your friends are the same people is not so easy. Everyone gets to hear both sides to every story, but are they really listening.

I'll admit that I've made a mistake, a huge one even, but one I don't really remember that well. However, I'm a believer in second chances. I don't write someone off because they made one mistake, and I definitely don't hold it against them. While I may be the one to do this, I realize that not everyone is the same way. Some people take a lot more time than others to heal.

I'm not saying that I'm happy, I'm not. I'm not saying that I'm okay, I'm not. But I am getting through, day by day.

I've started to keep a journal. One that has a list of everything that makes me happy. When dating someone for so long, I lost myself. I lost who I really was because the only thing that mattered to me was that the boy I loved was happy. When he was, you couldn't keep the smile off of my face. But when he wasn't, it broke my heart more than you know.

Slowly but surely I've found things that I love. I loved the TV series Dollhouse and the bands/artists Frank Ocean, Mumford and Sons, & Local Natives. I love Starbucks Pumpkin Spice Latte's and staying up late. I love goofing off with my roommate and three of the girls I've become super close with super quickly.

So for now, I'm just trying to discover who I really am and what I love. If you want to stay with me on this journey, I would love that. But if not, I completely understand. 

3 comments

  1. The Unpublished LifeSeptember 13, 2012 at 5:00 AM

    Hi there,


    I am so sorry to hear about your break-up, but I am so pleased for you that you are dealing with it in the best possible way - talking about it and getting by one day at a time. It is so easy to lose ourselves in relationships. We are eternal nurturers and we love passionately and with an all-consuming fire for the people in our lives. It makes us feel good to see them happy, but I do think we lose ourselves along the way. It's great to get back to you - back to your favourite things.
    Although, I think a relationship should not only be about making your man happy, but about him respecting and loving you enough to want to make you happy. You shouldn't lose yourself in a relationship, you should grow and become a better version of yourself. Otherwise, what is the point?


    Good luck and I look forward to following your journey!


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  2. Hello. I am sorry to hear about the breakup. I completely understanding the 'losing yourself' aspect. If there is anything you need,do not hesitate to email me. am going through a similar experience right now and would like someone to talk to,if you don't mind of course. I am now a new reader of your blog. Take care,Maria.

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  3. Aw, I'm doing a lot better now but thank you so much for the support. I appreciate it so much. I hope you're doing well and your situation isn't too awful! Keep your chin up! xo, Maria

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